[ being in space is... not at all what joseph thought it would be. although what did he think it would be like, really? it's not something you can really prepare for or imagine before it happens. there is one thing he definitely wouldn't have expected, even if he had thought about being in space before -- the whole destroying planets thing. he was dropped on ajna right before the end of that mission, hadn't gotten to see much of anyone at all who wasn't on his team or in his rover, and it was... well. it was. during his time in shiloh joseph's gotten used to doing things he doesn't strictly want to, so destroying planets really isn't all that big a deal. it's something to do that isn't sit at home, waiting on jack's word, watching him be miserable and being powerless to do anything about it.
during the sales pitch they'd said they could make it so that he and jack had never met, and god forgive him, that's what got him to say yes. not the threat to his own planet, but the chance at peace, finally, the opportunity to have a life beyond closed doors and whispered conversations in the backs of nightclubs. maybe it was when the recruiter came to him -- right before he was about to record that video, send it off to jack and the news and then -- but at the moment all he'd wanted was for it to be over. he hadn't always been like this, willing to put aside everything that made him happy just so he could take the scraps that jack would give him, but... well, love makes you do things you'd never have done, otherwise. joseph knows that better than anyone.
it seems like god is not so forgiving, because when he comes into the dining hall his eyes are drawn invariably, as they always are, to jack. he hadn't known he was here, hadn't even thought to look, but it seems that what he does and doesn't know doesn't matter where jack is concerned -- to abuse an already cliched notion, joseph is the moth drawn stupidly, fatally to jack's flame, and there is nowhere that joseph can go to escape him.
not even space. ]
Jack?
[ the name comes out small, almost scared, hoping that he's wrong -- but he knows he isn't. he would know jack anywhere. ]
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during the sales pitch they'd said they could make it so that he and jack had never met, and god forgive him, that's what got him to say yes. not the threat to his own planet, but the chance at peace, finally, the opportunity to have a life beyond closed doors and whispered conversations in the backs of nightclubs. maybe it was when the recruiter came to him -- right before he was about to record that video, send it off to jack and the news and then -- but at the moment all he'd wanted was for it to be over. he hadn't always been like this, willing to put aside everything that made him happy just so he could take the scraps that jack would give him, but... well, love makes you do things you'd never have done, otherwise. joseph knows that better than anyone.
it seems like god is not so forgiving, because when he comes into the dining hall his eyes are drawn invariably, as they always are, to jack. he hadn't known he was here, hadn't even thought to look, but it seems that what he does and doesn't know doesn't matter where jack is concerned -- to abuse an already cliched notion, joseph is the moth drawn stupidly, fatally to jack's flame, and there is nowhere that joseph can go to escape him.
not even space. ]
Jack?
[ the name comes out small, almost scared, hoping that he's wrong -- but he knows he isn't. he would know jack anywhere. ]